I missed Matt today...

The plan is that I get up every morning at 5am. Matt gets online at 8pm. Somehow (you know, through time travel or something) it just happens to be the same time and we get to talk. We can generally talk for an hour and a half before Matt absolutely has to get offline and go to bed. Its exhausting but it works well. And I look forward to my 5am conversations every morning. Today Matt didn't show up. Thats the frustrating thing about the internet. If you can't get to it, you just can't get to it. At least with the phone, if you can't talk, you can text or call earlier and let whomever know that you won't be there. Leave a message. Doesn't work that way online. I'm assuming that Matt was there and desperately trying to get online and the internet connection just wasn't working. It happens a lot but it hasn't ever kept us from talking. Or I could assume he got called into work and there was no way he could let me know before hand. Or maybe he got in trouble or...I should stop thinking of maybes because they just make me anxious. My one good thought is that Matt has emailed during his lunch break the past two days, maybe he'll email today and tell me what happened. I sure hope so. I mean, I'm an adult, I can make it a whole day without talking to my husband. But I don't like it. And since I have an overactive imagination, its better that I talk to him every day. But I missed talking to him today. And now I keep feeling like I should be online 24/7 just incase. Or that I should be getting a phone call from him at any moment. But it doesn't work like that. So I'll just hope for an email and keep telling myself that he's okay. Sigh.